I haven't been posting about this lately but I had a scar revision surgery in December on my boobs! It's going really well but I'm at the start of a long break in regular shooting again while they heal. I've still been doing other content and I'll be signing at AVN next week, but

the break has been really nice for me. In general, this last year was huge for me. I traveled a ton and shot a ton of cool projects and got more nominations than ever before!! But now it's so quiet... and honestly, so so much less stressful.

I really worry about my mental health going into award/expo season. I am more successful than I ever hoped but being constantly around it makes it hard for me to not compare myself to other people. I like my body less when I shoot for studios. I relax less. I do less of what I actually want.

But I also get to be apart of really, really cool productions, and that's huge for me. I get jealous when I see cool projects that I wasn't involved in. I feel FOMO when I think about LA, how many more events and projects and connections I could have if I lived there.

But then at the same time, it's not actually the life for me. I like leisure. I like shooting solo videos at home. I like living near my family, having time for other people, having time to play minecraft for hours.

Just some thoughts I'm having going into this season.

Your new boobs look freaking amazing

Thank you!!! Unfortunately it will be a couple months at least before I can reveal them again and they will look a little different but mostly the same!!