the break has been really nice for me. In general, this last year was huge for me. I traveled a ton and shot a ton of cool projects and got more nominations than ever before!! But now it's so quiet... and honestly, so so much less stressful.

I really worry about my mental health going into award/expo season. I am more successful than I ever hoped but being constantly around it makes it hard for me to not compare myself to other people. I like my body less when I shoot for studios. I relax less. I do less of what I actually want.

But I also get to be apart of really, really cool productions, and that's huge for me. I get jealous when I see cool projects that I wasn't involved in. I feel FOMO when I think about LA, how many more events and projects and connections I could have if I lived there.

But then at the same time, it's not actually the life for me. I like leisure. I like shooting solo videos at home. I like living near my family, having time for other people, having time to play minecraft for hours.