[This post could not be retrieved]
For a brief moment in time, I had forgotten this existed. After all these years, still not sure whether solitary angsting feels better or worse than seeing the anonymized angsting of others.
My life was more peaceful in the black box of the unknown.
I also prefer solitary angsting. It's easier for me to put it out of my mind if I don't know what's happening (beyond rejections trickling in).
My toxic trait is that I know it's bad for me and that I'm addicted to the pain. Truly cannot imagine summoning the will power to avoid the angsting spreadsheet this time of year.
Feb 3, 2026 23:16
