nika shedtwt
18 || victim of 🔪🍽️ ||
follows back ✨✨
- being scared of the adult psyche ward makes me risk my life i am scared of and for myself
- i feel like i need saved im so scared
- "i'm tired of hearing it all the time" imagine living with it i can't take it anymore
- day after day
- bruising the wrist bruising didn't show up
- went from 195 to 184 in two weeks
- that's definitely not the half bagel i ate
- yeah idk how yall get it up
- how do yall purge i litterally cant get myself to throw up my food
- i need to quit letting myself like people i go crazy
- year ago today fell into my dresser getting into the bathroom
- jesus christ
- i hate how ugly and disgusting my skin is but i can't help but want to make it worse
- never posted an update for those either
- anyways here's that update i disappear because i feel fine for like a week or two after then i spiral again an AWESOME cycle right 😀
- it's funny how i just disappear for weeks at a time every time im still going crazy dw
- can't take it anymore here's some small ones
- i'm so sick why does cutting instantly make me feel like everything's okay but that only lasts a week then i'm back to suffering
- shrinkage is annoying as fuck
- all i feel like i own are shorts wtf
- but god that shower made me feel sick cause of the pain
- next day and after shower the infected hair follicles is not it but i was not dealing with the blood all night so it was trapped under a tight gauze wrap
- i'm bleeding through everything another roll of gauze and self stick shit
- like please what did i do to you to be punished like this
- i'm just trying not to kms why do i have to be punished
- why me
- okay actually kms dude my dad gets up in 20
- anyways patchup job
- i want to cut more but that spot is too sensitive and i don't like doing it in more then one spot
- god i'm always losing my blades
- but when i try it doesn't work
- like you're joking
- now imagine if i did it on my arm like i originally planned
- no cause it's annoying how well they work stp
- at least we know cutting is definitely a good distraction cause what the actual fuck why did they never work this good when i wanted em to
- they'll definitely work for tomorrow tho i used to use these all the time tho
- definitely a vein there bro they'll d
- WTF
- i have blood everywhere wtf when i had these last time they never one swiped like this there is blood on my bedsheet
- fuck i'm not used to my favorite blades i wanted to die tomorrow not tonight wtf it's on swipe fuck fuck fuck
- went to walmart alone and got my favorite blades again
- these blades suck #shbsky
- i just need to go to walmart alone so i can get my good blades instead of stuff i can get away with buying anyways
