mimmy 🐾
in my dreams - red velvet
- head and heart are in a very weird and very torn spot and idk what to do out this situation
- and of course the person i would go to first for advice hates me and blocked me on everything and never wants to talk to me again
- i really do not like that there’s a certain group of my online friends who use genAI despite knowing what’s bad about it …
- i don’t care if it’s for a stupid meme. you have artists that would draw that for you as part of the bit for free. just so disappointing but whenever i call it out i’m the bad guy and acting hysterical …
- uh oh i think the cycle is repeating again
- please don’t take someone else away from me
- tried explaining the concept of a hello kitty gf to a new friend because i said i’m probably one and how do i explain it without scaring them away
- they’ll be scared away eventually but like cmon
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- pretty art
- mom asked if i wanted a haircut because she said she would pay for one as a present and i said no and im so glad she didn’t continue after because of i had to explain why not i would get sent to a psych ward
- what the point
- my entire life and future got destroyed in 2024 so idk why i’m even still here. 2025 had no hope and neither will 2026. 2025 just made whatever was ruined in 2024 infinitely worse
- i don’t get why i’m still here
- so turns out i’m gonna be alone on new years.
- whatever whatever WHATEVEEEERRRERRRRR it’s not like i have friends or that anyone likes me it’s fine
- nothing gets better. nothing makes me feel better. nothing gives me hope. the only thing/s that could’ve kept me going are all gone… i’m just useless and a waste
- always replaceable always replaced never missed by anyone
- found out info that gives me more ammo to just go through with it lmao
- i love when people think i’m overreacting and exaggerating but no time and time and time and time again it’s proven over and over and over and over and over and it’s always the same. it never changes.
- a tweet about something i’ve been struggling with came up on my fyp and asked for advice and the advice was just “keep doing the cycle“ as if said cycle isn’t harmful …
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View full threadalso the cycle itself isn’t healthy, but it also makes me feel like a bad person and it’s why i hate it. i hate it so much i hate it i hate it i hate it
- i’m also already in a repeat-ish of the cycle but it’s lowkey not working and im aware of it and tears me up inside because it’s the exact opposite of what i want to happen
- i’m never getting out and the only solution is killing myself
- tga just made me really remember how lonely i am. i only watched it with one other person and half the time he was just saying he wished the show ended faster so he could hangout with someone else .. then when it did end, i went somewhere else and just didn’t feel like i fit in at all
- i don’t feel like i fit in anywhere. everywhere i try to join feels weird because everyone is already friends with other people. no one is close to me like they are with others. even my irl besties have other friends besides me irl and i just. don’t.
- and tga just made it worse because of a really stupid reason. i just miss him a lot and nothing has ever felt the same since and he doesn’t care but neither does anyone else. i’m just nothing. and will never be anything more to anyone else.
- i don’t belong anywhere
- really, really, really missing him a lot today
- killing myself because i don’t look like this and i never will
- always always always being reminded that nobody cares about me even a fraction of how i care about them and nobody would care or be sad if i was gone and it’s better if i wasn’t around and every day it gets more and more true
- i still have two months to join the 27 club and i think i shall join tonight
- no one has ever cared about me and no one ever will. i’m tired. everyone just lies.
- i love being consistently shat on for thinking AI is dumb and stupid by people i call friends but whatever
- new lads banner made me burst out laughing kdmdodnd ain’t no way they did it that way
- better for everyone and everything if i just delete all of my accounts on all websites and then killed myself sfter
- pointless
- no matter how hard i try my brain is just always sad and depressed and i can never stay happy for even ten minutes
- no wonder
- loved by no one
- im such an asshole because i try so hard to cater and help my autistic nephew and his quirks and i don’t want him to think he’s annoying or anything but it’s hard to do sometimes. im just trying to be a good aunt and support who he is but sometimes it’s just … really hard
- idk how to describe it and i know it’s likely just him stimming or something but there’s behaviors he has that just seem … idk how to explain aaaaaa like i know its not his fault but idk how to help him without basically saying “just be normal” sometimes and i hate it
- because normal is subjective!! and he shouldn’t change and i know his brain works differently but idk how to cater to him without also babying him without also basically being mad he has a disability. especially since a lot of our family is ableist and not helping him properly
- hormones have been weird lately and making me really hungry and craving bad foods and it’s so discouraging. why cant i ever control myself or actually change anything
- forever just gonna be a hideous fat fuck
- trying not to get discouraged but it’s really hard
- i know i have to work for things. but having no progress and it being non linear makes it hard to keep going. fuck my stupid adhd brain.
- i jist. want to be good at something. anything. be able to do something worthwhile or helpful or even something to make people happy. and i can’t. i’m so worthless and pathetic and stupid.
- i’m really cold.
- if they wanted to they would
