lixi ♡ SHedsky
♡ edsky / shsky ♡
a guy -> he/xe/void
cbmi 18.0
ugbmi 10.2
i block a lot
old enough to be disordered for 7+ yrs
tw for suicide/sh/ed/trauma/csa
backup -> @haribobear.bsky.social
- im so mean and so pathetic my friend is going through something and im fuckinh jealous because my boyfriend is helping them but he never helped me like that and im so tired and hurt and sad but nobody CARES
- time to lose weight until my boyfriend gets concerned again!!
- i love lying oh yeah im sober yeah im clean yeah i stopped smoking nah caffeine is just cuz ive been having some late nights yeah ive been getting healthy actually
- im probably going to start tracking calories in here or a notes app bc i cant stick to apps for some reason
- okay we r so back
- locking in; an accountability thread
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- fast ended!!
- // bodycheck still so fucking fat, jesus CHRIST
- Accountability thread <333
- ive had lile 0 appetite all day this fast wasnt even tough like deadass 0 appetite i drank tea i rhink it helped that i was walking around all day w my friend who also ddinr get food so i wasnr tempted
- couldnt fast yesterfay so im fasting today <33
- vibezz
- i cant get myself to actually write stories so ive been writing letters about how i feel and i feel SICK i hate being in touch w my emotions i just like being numb this was a stupid idea
- writing long fucking letters about making someone love a lie and then continuing to make someone love a lie i am truly a horrible person
- i feel like i am predestined to love the men who leave me
- i have insane abandonment issues
- istg i keep losing and gaining the same 5kg i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, rinse and repeat i am so sick of this i got down to 44kg one time and i need to get back there, this is sickening
- had minimelts today and i was in HEAVENNNNNNNN i havent had those in YEARS 100000/10
- need need neeeed to lose my period again the dysphoria is fucking killing me motivation to restrict harder i guess
- im lowkey excited to go back, I want my fucking routineeee like consistent wake up time? consistent activities daily? knowing what will happen next? PLEASE like, i love my free time, and getting enough sleep but god this unpredictability is KILLING ME
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- ACCOUNTANTABILTY THREAD TIME!!!! not low res like i hoped but oh well, need to start somewhere
- i need to break it again but noooo my bf is coming over in two days so no cuts ;((( time to bash my knees against the flooorrrrr yipee
- I AM BACK I NEED TO GET SICK ENOUGH TO WORRY PPL HI YALL, IM BACCKKKKKKKKK
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- just broke a 3 month unintentional clean streak bc my boyfriend is gonna be away for almost a month and therefore the scars will have enough time to heal bh then yipeeee
- i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need
- im like 53kg rn which at my height is a fucking disgrace im almost bmi 19 i hate myself sm
- anyways....
- im back bc i finally gained the self awareness to realize just how fucking fat i ammmmmmm
- i just watched a child die a kid 7, from what ive heard a little kid he fell out of a window on the 7th floor couldnt save him im going to throw up i honestly dont know what to do
