John Irving Bot
Hoping soon to hear from you, I remain, my dear Malcolm, yours faithfully, John Irving
- We shall not have the same ties of situation nor the same feelings of relation to each other as we then had.
- Not that I am weak enough to believe that when you and I meet again we shall suit each other as well as when we were in the Belvidera.”
- I should be unjust to you if I did not tell you so, that it is the greatest comfort to me to think that, as long as we live, I have such a friend as you have been to me ever since I first knew you, and when we first called each other friends.
- No, quite the contrary;
- -than that I have the least expectation of such an event, or that you have ever given me the slightest cause to think it at all probable.
- It is more owing to the morbid sensibility of my own mind, combined with the long habit of deep interest about you, that makes me feel so acutely the bare possibility of your growing cold and indifferent about me,-
- Do not let this remark offend you.
- and it does seem natural, that you, surrounded by so many new and agreeable friends and acquaintances, and cut off from all associations with your former life, should gradually slacken your interest in, and cast off your affections for your old friends.
- Your feeling vexed at not hearing from me convinces me, more than a dozen letters could, that your interest in my welfare is still the same, and nothing could tend more to remove a horrid feeling of jealousy which sometimes crosses my mind, when I think it possible;
- It shows far more than any assertions could that you are really concerned about me; and I am sure that I never read anything of yours with such heartfelt pleasure as I did these warm remonstrances on my silence and apparent neglect of your letters.
- But, my dear Malcolm, do not think for a moment that I am at all displeased at your scolding me; far from it. Nothing could have pleased me more.
- I must finish my letter in a hurry. Good-bye.—I am ever your most affectionate John Irving.
- However, it is a source of great present discomfort and uneasiness to be forced to turn my attention, with an effort, to the consideration of subjects in which I used to take great pleasure some weeks ago.
- I do not know whether this may be a physical effect on the mind produced by the constant excitement in which I have lived for the last two months,—in which case, when I get settled, my mind may be restored to its former calm and comfortable state.
- and I am quite aware that I do not think nearly so much as I used to do about eternity and the things belonging to it.
- From having been so hurried about these last two months, and never having time to read, I regret that I am not nearly in such a peaceful state of mind as I used to be
- however, I saw her sisters, and have rather melancholy news to carry out to her husband, our Commander.
- I found the poor lady quite insane
- Some of my friends seem quite confident that I shall be promoted in a short time, but if this takes place in eighteen months it will happen sooner than I myself expect.
- Believe me ever your affectionate friend, John Irving
- I am afraid you will consider this a terribly egotistical letter, but mine are naturally such to you.
- I shall be out at Malta about the end of April, and, I am afraid, shall have some difficulty in joining my ship; but I suppose I must stick to the letter-bag.
- I shall also get, and, as you desire, consider as a present from you, the little book called Advice to a Young Christian.
- I have procured Newton’s Cardiphonia on your recommendation, but I have not had time to read it yet.
- She is a most pious, amiable lady, and I am sure you will be as much pleased with her as she will be with you.
- She told me she often carried you in her arms when you were an infant.
- She is very anxious to see you.
- Her name was Pringle.
- However, I will take it as a great favour if, when you are next in Scotland (perhaps next summer you will probably be in Edinburgh), you will go and see Mrs. Scott Moncrieff.
- It vexes me to leave England without seeing you; but it cannot be helped.
- Captain Stanley could not obtain leave to go home, without losing the ship, and he entreated me, with the tears running down his cheeks, to go and see his wife before I left England. This I promised to do.
- She has been long in bed, and was, I believe, despaired of.
- I have also to go away from London one day sooner than I would otherwise be obliged to do, as I have to pay a visit in Dorsetshire, on my way to Falmouth, to Mrs. Stanley, the wife of Captain Stanley, the commander of the “Edinburgh.”
- however, having passed all the examinations, and feeling that I have done my best, as far as it depends on me, I do not feel so very anxious about it.
- Sir George Clerk having a son coming from the West Indies to pass is a great obstacle to me;
- but, as they are mostly strangers to me, this will be a most disagreeable employment.
- He wishes me to call upon several friends of his in London, whom he has written to, and endeavour to induce them to interest themselves as much as possible in procuring my promotion;
- In obedience to my father’s wishes, I am leaving home three or four days sooner than absolutely necessary for being at Falmouth by the 3d of next month.
- I shall be in town in the end of the week, and shall call at Harley Street for the parcel of books for Kingston. I hope you will give Miss S. due notice of this, as I should feel it very awkward calling for the books and nobody knowing anything about them.
- My dear Malcolm
- My ever dearest Malcolm, your affectionate friend, John Irving.
- Excuse haste.
- but I shall write to you again before that time.
- I shall be leaving Scotland about the end of the month, and will call at Harley Street for the books on my way to Falmouth
- There were eleven of us tried; nine were turned back, and two passed.
- I passed to-day.
- I received your very kind letter three days ago; however, as I did not know my movements, I delayed writing you until I did.
- My dear Malcolm,
- I am, your affectionate friend, John Irving.
- I will now finish my letter with expressing my delight with your last.