but then I heard something mentioned that I couldn't not research, and it was BAD. Even just the wikipedia article for the actor involved was incredibly upsetting to read, so I will avoid going into more details than mentioned in the TWs. but now, I'm severely struggling to find the comfort & joy

it's not just a case of being (un)willing/able to separate art & artist (which I definitely struggle to do, as 1) an artist who puts 100% of his soul in his work, & 2) an autistic human whose thinking can be pretty rigid, especially ethics-wise) more pressingly, it's a question of CPTSD management

[extra TWs: intimate partner/sexual violence/eating disorder] while I have never been in a cult (though 1+ loved one has survived one), I am a survivor of multiple abusive relationships, and more counts of sexual harassment/assault/r*pe that I could ever count as a result, I developed CPTSD, >

< depression, anxiety, an ED, fibromyalgia. The manageable OCD tendencies I already had (probably due to the 'tism) became wildly *un*manageable. I live (badly) with chronic insomnia, hallucinations, nightmares, night sweats, & more. The quality of the little sleep I get is, unsurprisingly, abysmal.

the things that went on in the cult this 1 actor was involved in (+ tried & convicted for) are far too close to home for me to watch the show without immediately thinking of all of the above. with this is mind, what do I do? genuine question do I grimace through the last few eps of S6, then see >