It's been months now. And I am finally with someone new and honestly he's been the most loving, respectful, emotionally intelligent, and patient partner I think I've ever had. Being with him feels easy and it feels like rest. And... I met him in Where Winds Meet! Lol
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Gone for three months. Good to know that my real estate was absolutely worthless. Really? No one wanted this?
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is this anything
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New day, new boundaries.
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This video by Alex Pearlman does a really good job explaining why branding changes like his aren't "woke" they're just another chapter in the big book of "Capitalism and the adventure of endless growth for the shareholders".
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The argument that I was somehow GROOMED out of my gender dysphoria is the WILDEST take yet. Please go outside. What the hell.
On another note, I'm going to start Aikido lessons. I think it will help me.
Complexity should we invited and welcomed. Parroting lies to make ourselves comfortable has never helped us. It just makes us neurotic about a belief that should have been met with more curiosity to start with. I see nothing wrong with exploring and questioning gender. But if what we KNOW to be true
Sometimes I search "detrans" online to find community and connection but it's mostly hijacked by people just shitting on us which is so isolating and disheartening. Transitioning isn't universally healing. I went into integrative therapy to heal from DV and realized that
Registered for Psych Data Analysis and Psychopathology. Really excited for the course options at this school. My advisor was so incredibly interested in my previous coursework that he was excited to learn what I'll bring in terms of research. So that's encouraging.
My soul has been feeling more tired lately. I can't say I relate to any of the people around me who are constantly picking fights and hills to die on over issues that really don't matter in the grand scheme of things. Destroying relationships over moral outrage just feels so weird to me now.
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That woman kept me in survival mode for years that I never really got to process and heal from what happened with my previous ex. But also, I am weirdly grieving for Papillon's losses over the years which somehow feels more complicated and painful. Perhaps because he's where I could feel safe.
Grieving.
Feeling cute today. Got told I looked cute by a guy in the elevator and then again by a cute guy at the farmers market. And naturally, I said thank you, blushed, and scurried away.
It's been years but I've been reflecting on my previous ex's quiet bpd and how little ruptures added up over time, how the fear of abandonment fueled episodes of acting out. How their family just made things even worse. I just feel sad. Ignorance isn't bliss at all. It's just suffering.
When your boss texts you at ass in the morning on your day off to tell you "good fucking work" feels good.
50% of fanbase: NOOO mare dead
50% of fanbase: YESS mare dead
guy in your fc whos always running baldesion arsenal: running baldesion arsenal tonight guys
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I developed a vegan and gluten free chocolate chip monster cookie at work today. It's already a hit.
I'm kinda glad I stopped using Mare a while back. Frankly it's mostly because I lost my friend groups that cared about it. But so many people have extremely modded characters with mods they PURCHASED and so many people can't ERP without them that I feel kinda bad for those folks.
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