Opal (she/her) 🏳️⚧️🏴
Sad old transsexual woman in Seattle searching for family and building community while on fire. NBD.
- I'm having a wild morning. Turns out my body just can't take all this stress and now I'm sick I got to get checked out by 11:00 and move in and get to the Swedish Ballard ER I'm at the Mental Health crisis. I'm at the complete body collapse. I'm at the Mental Health crisis and complete body collapse
- Crashout Bandicunt
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- When you are thousands of miles away from someone who needs you and you can't be there for them how they need you. Broken hearts that could heal the shame together. Shared sadness and dysphoria going unresolved. Scarred bodies and hearts needing intimacy without pain or sacrifice. Separated.
- I really hate how long it takes for nausea to go away
- This is unintentionally the saddest photo I've ever taken. 400 days homeless but I still gotta feel like I'm running even with keys in hand. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Every morning a new dawn awaits. Maybe someday soon I'll be able to get that little spot I've been eyeing in the cemetery.
- It wasn't me who loosened my screws and put a bat in my belfry.
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- When you need sleep but you're insane.
- I should feel good.
- Out among people I'm shown how little ego strength I have left. None. The sun shines thru, illuminating the fissures in me. Dirty, old, eroded.
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- you got psyched-out, crashout. what you need is a hand up and some help out! hand out! head up! crash out! GENOCIDE²! worldwide-shared! Stand alone, together! BUT NOT LIKE THAT! BUT NOT LIKE THAT! BUT NOT LIKE THAT! GENOCIDE²! worldwide-shared! Stand alone, together BUT NOT LIKE THAT! ... ...
- You don't have to push hard at all to topple me. I'm not stable on my feet. I can't take being pushed without falling. If I fall because you pushed I'm going to be scared of you after. If you say I should or need to have fallen differently I'm going to wonder if you cared that I was unstable.
- democrats are as far left as fascists will go. beware the carrot distracting you from the stick
- Who needs a hope chest when you have a big sister?
- You haven't really crashed out until you crash out in front of the entire trans Intelligentsia of Seattle
- I'm never gonna have the abilities so many folks think I should. Everyone knows what's best for me but I don't understand why all that's "best" just seems to be more unpaid labor. What's best for me is to achieve things I cannot achieve?!? I must excel beyond all reasonable expectations. Relatable?
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- One of my favorites by The Cure
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- sobbing while horizontal nostrils plugged bubble sounds and gasping no room for kindnesses
- I just keep telling myself there's a ER next door and nobody will judge you and you won't be trapped with people who are hurting you like before fuckin breathe this is so difficult. every time. If I go right now I won't be able to advocate well for myself. I need some rest first
- I can't talk with my best friend and it makes everything hurt so much worse.
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- This was a big deal for me 🎉
- you know, maybe this time I'll be allowed to have a wig on the bhu. last time I could bring Bear and they had long colored pencils not just golf ones. It's hard to get myself to go. No one usually visits and the dehumanization is almost too much.
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- when my heart breaks I just wait until late when I'm alone in the dark. I get on all fours with my head down and sob until my broken heart chokes me.
- I remember in 89 how excited I was to get my tongue pierced. I was trembling. One of my favorite memories. No bad sides.
- The new folks in the room above me are given the bed a workout. I think they can hear me right now making this post about it which I think is really funny
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- Face & neck tats for me yeah or nah? I mean, it's not like I'm going to be going back to tech anytime soon certainly not systems architecture.
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- my heart is confused and it hurts a lot. i feel as if i am in a spaceship and this is my terminal to the world but everyone is so far away
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- what folks seem to be missing is that america isnt doomed anymore, it just isnt anymore. america is gone. the usa is gone. there is no going back. stop dreaming. wake up and do something that promotes life and growth. anything at all. no representative is going to fix this. you have to.
- grind away survival for 50 years. people say youre brave and blah blah blah like there was a choice that my mind made instead of my body. a lifetime of people i stayed for who cheered me on, for a moment. all no longer in my life. my illness is not palatable. all my friendships are doomed. #uglysick
- when youre chasing down resources to help dv survivors get to safety and community resources and you realize you havent begun to heal from that yourself and this is a lot to take
