quill 💫
shed + bpd + vent || 21 || she/they
sw: 162 ; cw: ? ; gw: ?
- someone buy me a dispo right MEOWWWW!!!
- so anyways 2026 is gonna be my year !! ill come up w a plan later tdy i am wayyyy too fucking tired to atm ..
- hiiii so i gained some weight and husband pointed it out and i am actually so disgusted now i think i will kms !!
- feeling so # homicidal LOLLLL
- i dont want to die but i feel like everyone would be better off without me
- me when .. me when i cannot react normally (SOMEBODY SEDATE ME)
- i need to learn how to cook yall
- guys so i gained weight and i might fucking kms I FEEL SO SHIT RAHHH
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- TW// SH
- i accidentally just one swiped beans 💀
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- i finally did it, i had the abortion unfortunately now i feel extremely suicidal and want to stab myself :p
- okay well maybe i should just kms ! have my cake and eat it too 😝
- back on that ED shit 🕺 (currently at 810 cals) im using Lose It! to track my calories :3c currently on a plan to lose 1 1/2 lbs per week i want to go harder but i also know that if i do i will start binge eating again 😞 (limit is 1k) also hoping to workout again cause i want to lose more hehe
- i feel so social but i got no friends 💯
- maybe i am just meant to suffer
- sometimes i forget my bpd affects anyone but me until i explode or feel way too much and take it out on those around me me and my lover go to couples counseling and our therapist told me that i push him away out of a fear of being abandoned or rejected and fail to trust him the way he deserves
- today the kms meter is average
- everytime i do anything i always end up wanting to kill myself just a little more. i am just so tired of feeling like a failure and a shit person .
- i wish we never got this fucking dog
- oh my god im gonna start fucking tweaking WHAT ARE YOU ONNNNNNN BRUH
- guys i am losing all desire to live i rlly need to see someone before i go insane
- i need to see a therapist again cause i feel so deeply suicidal
- everything hurts my emotionally fragile heart i wish i was just fucking normal or that i could just remove my emotions entirely ... what is the point of having the ability to feel empty if my brain DOESNT FUCKING USE IT RAH
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- i feel like shiiiiiiiit 😛😛
- alsoooo lowkey on the verge of relapsing in my ex (idk why i just feel like it's gonna creep up on me) .. so thats cool 😝
