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- I'm just realizing that my ex has been lying about whoever it was he was seeing behind my back with the guise of a person he knows and claims is someone who moved on from him. I'm... Lol 😂 so now I know I really was just a means to an end and a placeholder. It makes sense now.
- Playing Chinese telephone with the devil isn't a choice one makes voluntarily I don't th- *call drops*
- Screaming crying and throwing up at the fact that I was so close to a SOAD concerrrrrttttt!!!
- I hope I'm doing the right things for me.
- Kindness. The irony.
- Tryna get a faculty job honestly. If I'm going to have anything stable, I need something stable
- I'm a woman so I don't see why I shouldn't be the one to be pursued. I've never chased anyone but I do think I should have made it more on them to make it clear that they wanted a relationship with me. If they can't be upfront from the beginning, why would they be later on.. 🤔
- And ever since I haven't been the one to initiate things, I haven't been approached at all. Which just furthers the idea to me that I wasn't wanted or cared for. It was just convenient to them. I don't need to be convenient for people at all.
- Idk if it's ignorant of me to think I'm never going to be in a relationship again or won't be married etc. I do know I put way too much energy into things and consistently receive less than what I put in. I do think if it's going to be, it shouldn't feel one-sided as usual.
- And everyone can take that as respectfully or as disrespectfully as they want to. I will always try to maintain good relationships but if that means I have to be beaten down for it, then keep that. Childish behavior and we put away childish things. I must have standards for myself.
- When you stop taking being yelled at and disrespected, it's going to be a problem. It does not matter how amicably you try to go about it. I have been on the other side of it, and all that gets you is the same and even worse as far as being assaulted. I'm not taking that.
- Turns out my worst is being incredibly angry, a swearing factory and massively antisocial. When you stop taking being disrespected and start saying what you think, even without yelling or swearing, because you have the audacity to defend yourself, you're disrespectful and insubordinate.
- Goes to show you that it wouldn't have mattered if I was asked anything when I moved to TX. They already decided they knew me and knew the situation at hand from before they met me so when I performed well it was seen as a fluke and that I must be seen at my worst to be authentic
- People consistently overlook that fact and it sets up a dangerous precedent because people seem to forget that asthma can kill you and what triggers people are not all the same.
- ODPEM putting out a notice that asthmatics might be triggered during this time but I've never seen them make the same statement during the summer during heat waves and Saharan dust which is also when some asthmatics are triggered. It's a major oversight if so.
- Scenes. Cause I'm just getting more and more confirmation that you can be as direct and upfront about something and still have people be inconsistent with you. You can do everything in your power to be transparent with people and they will continue to muddy the water.
- My entire reels feed is engagement rings and wedding gowns. It's still wedding season apparently, but why is this on MY fyp? I'm still, unfortunately, living at my parents' house. I don't see a wedding ever happening here.
- Especially when it seems like a federal crime to ask anything and some people are dedicated to making your questions/suggestions seem like they're idiotic.
- Then there's the almost mocking pep talks about the discipline being 'better off with you in it'. Makes you wonder who exactly it's better off for. Especially when you find that the narrowness of persons in the discipline serves as a way to bar your progress despite your ability to produce good work
- Feels like I chose the worst career path of all just b/c I enjoyed facets of it. The pervasive SA and assault, the elitism that is academia overall, the niche area of work that can serve to further screen you out if you're seen as an undesirable, the cost to move, the abundant short term contracts.
- So I'm looking for a job meanwhile people were there for extra curricular activities. Basically, "there's a billboard somewhere around here for that, I have an affair to get back to". But the affair might be a literal, actual affair. Go figure.
- Found out in recent years that conferences are really seen as working vacations to most people. I had no idea and had been going, looking for job opportunities. In recent years I found out the mild irritation I'd felt was probably because I was asking about a job when they were trying to relax.
- It's probably better to not attempt to attend an online seminar when you know you're in a different time zone and you've been fighting sleep already. If you don't have an actual presentation, it's just potentially a bad time. Idk if it makes sense to attend these, really.
- Would have definitely preferred to be in Poland, especially since it's cold. Jamaica sucks. Though privacy is apparently not afforded in either situation.
- The freak that would stalk me before just tried to add me on FB again. Immediate block. Don't think he'll try to create accounts to follow me with again though, since it seems he now has a daughter. That's usually when they might realize they have a fucked up way of behaving.
- Cold, cold heart
- Ironic
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- I have no sisters. Wouldn't want one either. Already have a brother. Been a pain in the ass and for some reason people keep referring to me as a man so I might as well be an only child and be both 🤷🏾
- Cause it's funny how they require you to spend ALL your money on a visa application meanwhile they can not only deny the visa but also turn you away at the port when you get there. Nothing guarantees you any protection and honestly travelling was far better before I went to Texas
- Oh, and remember, your national documents are allegedly owned by the government so they can and will take your documents without you even knowing and do whatever with it. Which is why that process they have with Poland in Jamaica is more than questionable, at best.
- They police women hard meanwhile pedophiles, rapists and predators roam free just because they are 'men'. But this is a world worth being excited to live in. 😂
- All remember seh Montague's husband was a soldier and used to have people walking around filming us after school at the bus park etc. Real insane rubbish and I used to walk from wolmers to my father office and big man used to call to me while I'm in a TENT of a tunic.
- Been to the embassy more than once and had the exact same people with the exact same process happening. Been told I've been filed for since I was in high school and saw a girl in a wolmers uniform too. Waiting on filing when they can reset your whole life in real time is 😂
- Finding out Facebook looks alot less annoying than once before. Cool.
- I really want a camera 😔
- Very much missing being by the water but they're polluting the place and even leaving medical waste there. Idk why Jamaicans have no civic pride, it's not even biodegradable. Smh
- People saw Trump's first term, especially how it ended and expected this time around to be anything less than a nightmare. Not even dogs return to their own vomit.
- Chinese telephone is a helluva thing
- Lawyer interference be like 😂
- Nothing in life matters. I guarantee it.
- Boy do I have news for you
- I can almost guarantee TSA isn't going to send me any response. Smh.
- Kind of miss port royal but they're not taking care of over there at all. Garbage being left by the beachside and it wasn't like that before. Even found medical waste over there. 😔 Disappointing.
- And I'm... Not cleaning that up.
- Shipwize is highway robbery
- Idk why flow decided to expire sim cards in 2 months. Ridiculous. All they're doing is eating your credit.
- Everything is all about people forcing you to do things that you don't want to do.
