Same? It takes moments that are actually bravery, but that I can't always feel proud about, and at times I feel I'm supposed to be ashamed of the try. The conflict of the 'need of the bravery to win against self-disgust' against the 'sense of being indulgent of which I was to be ashamed' is hard

To clarify, the moment bravery winning over self disgust is both what is healthier and what I want for all who suffer this. If anyone 'should' suffer self digust of this variety, I'd rather they correct whatever harm is done and/or stop doing more, but if they're already doing it, that feeling-

- being there or not is irrelevant, in terms of actions. I'd rather most of us, if not all, avoid the weird emotional conflict altogether, as it's quite awful and doesn't seem to do either health or joy

i'm sincerely surprised at this reception

I hope I communicated the ideas I intended to, which were meant to be something more like "I stare at the same puzzle too much, this thing sucks, you're right"