didnt realise that turning 30 would me make reflect so much on life
like when i turned 20, and 25 (the last i guess statement ages) i yearned so much for so many things, for friendships, and feeling good in my skin, and being able to be myself and things being less confusing
and now i have all these things, and putting aside the general state of the world i am quite happy with my life, and it feels so weird to not have life feel like a constant sprint where i am always lagging behind (but im not complaining :p)
its like if i look at the growth i made in the last few years even? i felt so stuck at 25 and now im doing all these things I never thought I would able to. I wish I could tell past me that I love them and that i always have. i just needed more time to understand that.
Feb 3, 2026 21:02