Ive thought this before, but I find the aftermath of traumatic events a lot like being bitten by a werewolf. You get these powerful and strange new urges that are so intense they feel animal. There are things you loved beforehand which no longer appeal at all. You got hurt and it changed you.

But in good news, the bar could track down the woman who assaulted me there pretty much immediately because she gave them a card for her marketing business lmaooooooo

Thank you for all the supportive replies to this btw. I am getting by day to day and physically I'm fine. I've had to cancel a lot of things I was looking forward to because of The Trauma though, and I don't know when I'll be able to enjoy them again, so that blows