Mike rackhabit
Multimedia artist specialising in the use of spraypaint . I change spaces
- Hands in the dirt. Nothing grounds me (see what I did there) more than getting down to my allotment and getting dirt on my hands, under my fingernails preparing to grow food for my body and soul. With all the changes going on in my life it's good to have a constant that remains the same
- Allotment again today. Today even though it's still only 745am has been full of tears. Tears for the loss of my love but also for the wonderful friends who have sent me messages of hope and love. My heart is empty and full all at once. Getting some seeds in the ground is my mission today
- So after 22 years it's over. We have talked and me and my partner are separating. She's my best friend and if I want to keep her as that I have to let her go. She's amazing and I will miss her so much . But sometimes you just have to do what's right even if it feels so wrong
- Another thing that takes me away from all the stresses of life is getting out riding trails on my mountain bike. Today thetford with my youngest.
- My allotment has been a true refuge for my body and mind. Getting my hands in the dirt literally grounds me. This year it's really going to count
- Gah emotions! Who the hell thought they were a good idea?
- Write a positive message to the person who has hurt you the most x
- Mind you me moaning about my life issues still can't be quite as annoying as all the anti trump posters who have literally got nothing else to talk about and still think that posting about how much they hate him is ACTUALLY doing something....it isn't! Whatever happened to direct action.
- I might be a bit of a misery on here atm but I've decided it's my place to vent how I'm feeling. The fact that no one probably reads it means nothing it's just good to put it in writing. Back I'm the garden today taking a bit more willow down.
- Yesterday I had a panic attack. Never had one before,thought I had.. how wrong was I. It put my head in a place I thought I wouldn't recover from. Today is a little brighter I've learnt something about myself.
- Today was a mixture of emotions. Reading about how gene Hackman and his wife passed away made me cry, thinking about how he died alone only a room away from the woman he loved but because of alzhiemers possibly didn't even know she was dead! How incredibly sad
- Then I got to spend a day walking, sitting by the river talking over our issues with my woman. Don't necessarily think I know anymore or feel any more secure but communication helps . I will fight to keep her with all my heart and soul. She is a wonderful person
- What's hard about fighting to keep a relationship going that's faltering is the periods when you aren't together. Wanting to communicate and listen, to learn how to heal. I know she needs space but sometimes that space feels like a void.
- Each day is a blessing. Trying positivity when things seem very unpositive is a challenge but I like a challenge lol. Today after trimming my bush (still not a euphemism) I'm up my willow taking back some bigger branches. Staying active and occupied is vital for my mental health
- Trying to be more proactive with everything in my life. Being loved starts with yourself. If I don't love me how can I expect anyone else to? I've been a lazy fucker most of my life getting away with the bare minimum wherever possible. Time to max out
- For clarity. I nearly lost my love of the last 22 years. I've been complacent in my understanding of what she needs and how to nurture love and that special feeling you get when that person is around. Me showing I have it isn't enough I need to help it (re) grow in her by my actions and respect
- Positive vibes. You don't know what you have until you have lost it, or nearly!. Being given a second chance to hold onto something so special is truly a gift. I won't be so complacent in the future.
- Well after removing the Facebook app from my phone hoping that would encourage me to stop looking at the hateful crap on there and then realising I was just using the phone browser instead. I've taken the next step and deactivated my account.
- The Geometric wall I created for Spetchley house #interiordesign #kellingdesigns #spetchleyestate #geometric
- Lord weird slough feg Pen and ink on heavyweight paper A2
- She lay there dreaming
- The idea that there is a middle class is a lie created by the elite. There are only two classes the elite (them) and the workers (us). Middle class is a dangling carrot, a rung on a ladder that doesn't exist
- Isn't it odd that when climate change affects the rest of the world it doesn't seem to matter quite as much as when it's just burnt an Americans community down.
- I'm from a time when social media was aol message boards. I was a moderator on a few and a flamer on others. I still have freinds I made back then however I also made some bad choices. Meeting women wasn't always "ideal" had one who wanted me to piss on her, I did twice....went off tge idea and
- Another who ran an ex krays pub in east London who when we slept together for the first time called me by my screen name during sex!
- I've always been staunchly anti fascist. Why would you be anything else? I started my anti fascist journey in 1989 when I joined D.A.M and later A.F.A . The idea that fascism can be debated or be "talked down" via peaceful means is what led to the deaths of over 35 million people.
- My neighbour is a shit. We have a community order against her and her tribe of ingrate scum. New year is a moment of dread for us because she has a legitimate reason for acting like she does the other 364 day of the year. I'm not one for the promotion of eugenics but.......
- And against all expectations she fucked off somewhere else last night to piss them off rather than us.
- Trigeminal neuralgia is a bitch. I don't suffer as often as I used to but when it pops up and smacks me in the side of the head.....wow. not much makes me cry but this comes close
- The green Knight. Pen and ink on heavyweight paper A2 SOLD #illustration
- Commission for NAILZ
- Trouble at grandma's house Pen and ink on heavyweight paper A2
- Biggie. This guy was done really quickly as an afterthought but still happy with him
- Bauhaus interior painted for a client. One of two large walls in this property. Painted for kellingdesigns.co.uk
- New canvas starting in the new year. Along with two new LOTR drawings. Commissions still being taken
- I've muted the tree/sound post as I feel like I'm going round in circles. It's been fun 😁
