jem 🫧
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- pilates class was so hard today and i feel fantastic
- i am so deeply angry with the way everything in this country functions but watching my coworker try to work 40hrs a week while she’s actively fighting stage 3 lung cancer is building a new kind of rage within me. i am so, so angry and frustrated and sad that she has no other choice
- walked into her classroom to find her crying bc she was so exhausted and in so much pain :(( it’s just heartbreaking and it’s so fucked and i hate that there’s nothing i can do to change that situation. i’m just trying to do what i can to be a genuine support to her and someone she can lean on
- i’ve become fiercely protective of her bc nobody else is being very considerate of what she’s going through. she isn’t doing chemo right now and puts up a front everyday so she doesn’t “look like a cancer patient.” she told me she’s considering shaving her head just so people take her seriously :(
- deeply obsessed w this party 4 u cover in the style of tfb
- oh whiny emo folk punk genre they could never make me hate you
- it’s taking me forever to watch lotr but i finally finished two towers last night and this monologue made me cry😭 oh little samwise, i love you so much
- i knew a good amount of plot details for the first 2 movies going in but i don’t know much at all about the return of the king and what i do know makes me very afraid
- starting to notice the days getting longer again <3 bit by bit
- at some point this weekend i need to force myself to actually sit with my grief bc i fear i have not done that yet
- happy friday, y’all, let’s make it to the weekend
- okay well the parents of 1 of those 2 challenging kiddos told me at pickup that last night they were putting him to bed and he said “miss jem tuck me in every day [during nap], she so nice to me” 😭 and then told them “i love my teachers” so i guess i’m doing something right there
- after all my internal crashing out this week, to know that even the kids who drive me bananas go home feeling loved and taken care of is a reminder of why the work matters and why it’s worth it <3
- taking my break 7 hours and 15 minutes into my shift
- the kids are out to get me today 🙃 and my co-teacher is out again so i’m on my own w them and it’s so exhausting to not be able to take my eyes off my 2 most challenging kids for more than 20 seconds at a time when i have 8 of them to take care of like i am losing my marbles!!! i’m at my wit’s end
- but if i’m not being SO hyper vigilant w them they’re going to attack the other kids. i’ve had to write enough incident reports this week, pls i’m so tired of having these convos w their parents. and it’s frustrating bc i can’t put any full attention on my other babies and it’s not fair to them :/
- and on top of that the health inspector decided to come today 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 and they’re so strict w pre-k, which they should be ofc but it’s so stressful having them watch everything you’re doing when you’re trying to take care of toddlers
- sorry i’m crashing tf out abt work on main this week oomfies, i started my period this morning so i fear that is a significant factor in my “is any of this even worth it?” thought patterns lmao😭
- first real pilates class tn since the other one was just an intro course, i’m excited !! ^_^
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- had my 2nd session w my new therapist today and it went well. it was still laying out groundwork stuff but it’s already starting to feel more natural w her
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- rosie’s insurance costs double the amount of our renter’s insurance and we’ve never used it but after that time she got so sick she almost died and we had to scramble to pay nearly $1k worth of vet bills, i’ve felt it’s a necessity. why are medical costs of every kind so abhorrent here !!!!
- + part of why it’s necessary to me is bc she’s so so aggressive that if anything is wrong w her they have to fully sedate her to do a real examination 😭 and that alone costs so much for no reason, but they cant even touch her otherwise
- pilates classes booked twice a week for the next month 🥳 yippee!!
- my husband is the sweetest, kindest, nicest most supportive person in the world and i’m so thankful that he’s always ready to help me pursue my goals
