i really like illuga being deeply attracted to both flins and varka but also having a lot of anxiety about it because he feels like the perpetual third wheel in their relationship. like he thinks they'll tolerate him but never truly prioritize him
Jan 28, 2026 15:40i love characters that yearn deeply but are held back by their fear of rejection. illuga watching flins and varka arm-in-arm laughing together and feeling his stomach twist into knots
i think in this case illuga is partially correct, in that flins has told varka that he is fae and hasn't told illuga, which indicates a level of trust or closeness not extended to him... but he does not realize that flins considers their relationship very precious in a different way
illuga isn't jealous... can you imagine! him being jealous of a couple of old men! what nonsense. he has more important things to be doing other than mooning after his colleagues...
