Semi-Verbal Autistic 🌈
Autism is my painful special interest, I'm a L2 semi-verbal autistic 90s baby with a "Greta Thunberg complex" regarding the autism industry. ♿🩼♾️ She/Her. UK. ⚠️ I can't read DMs.
- The NHS has given me the worst Autistic mental health on Earth. I'm not a person anymore, I'm just my ruined process.
- I don't care about anything except my ruined process. Nothing matters in comparison to that. I can't focus on anything except my ruined process. It's taken the space where my special interest obsessiveness used to be. My special interest is my ruined process. It's unacceptable.
- I'm so bored of this world. Nothing stimulates my Autistic brain anymore.
- the NHS should have a separate team explicitly for diagnosing Autistic girls, it's the only way to prevent fascist clinicians from refusing us healthcare under the excuse of "the traditional masculine Autistics need our help more!"
- The NHS process taught me that autism diagnosis is not supposed to be affirming or empathetic. Diagnosis is supposed to be abusive, exhausting, traumatic, coercive, gaslighty. It's supposed to make you feel trapped and invisible.
- The NHS taught me that if your diagnosis was a relief, it was done wrong. The NHS taught me that if your diagnosis was affirming, it was done wrong. A diagnosis is abuse. It's supposed to feel horrible.
- The NHS doesn't diagnose autism. It diagnoses masculinity. It diagnoses middle class status. It diagnoses verbality. It diagnoses "irritating".
- Female autism isn't irritating. It's quiet. Shy. Self-sacrificial. How is a female supposed to get diagnosed when we're incapable of being arrogant brats?
- How is a speech-impaired person supposed to "dominate the conversation"? Even if I could, that's the least disabling aspect of the autism. What about being unable to wash, have a job, study, or hold conversations?
- an Autistic girl is the most invisible creature on Earth
- I'm so tired of British society pretending to care about "Autistic girls" while systematically driving us to suicide every month. TERFs can choke on their fake solidarity.
- Nobody cares that we are abused and murdered by the school system, the mental health system, the social care system. They only mention "Autistic girls" when gender transition is the topic.
- Imagine if society actually cared about Autistic girls! Imagine if we weren't just an excuse card for TERFs! Imagine if people actually believed we exist!
- Autistic marginalization is so absolute, that we are told we don't exist. #autism
- "Disabled people who can't work are still valuable!" My Autistic brain struggles with this, especially as people don't specify HOW. How am I valuable when I have no purpose? The meaning of "value" is a positive attribute you bring to existence. Plus, living without purpose is boring.
- I don't want to be a pointless person. The boredom makes me just as suicidal as the alienation and discrimination does.
